Missing Friend

My heart is aching.

For some reason, I decided to check my Friendster account this evening.  I normally don't check it anymore, but for some reason I did.

I was browsing through my friends and one thing saddened me the most - my once best friend has deleted me from her list of friends.  She has cut off my only access to her world.

Everything was fine between us just a year ago.  But our friendship became rocky when her relationship with my brother-in-law became rocky.  She was supposed to be my Maid of Honour at our wedding, but she backed out just as we were having our wedding invitations printed.  It was sad to think that her problems with my brother-in-law also affected our friendship.

She was the bestest friend I had (aside from my hubby).  She was the only girl I could connect with, with nothing false whatsoever.

Until today, we have no contact.  I sometimes leave messages for her at Friendster but no replies.  I text her on special occasions and when I think of her but no replies.

I don't want to give up on our friendship because she really was the bestest girl friend I ever had.  Although I have a terrible feeling that she has let go of our friendship.  I try to keep that thought at the back of my mind and I still hope that one day she will put aside what happened between her and my brother-in-law, and decide that our friendship is worth keeping.  What are the chances that she will think this?  I have no idea.  But I'm still hoping.

I miss you Chix.